Are you there God?

It's me, ...

That book got me through a lot in my younger years. Judy Blume really knew where my head was, and how to bring me back to reality.

Where's my manual for being an adult? I have never been so encompassed by this much turmoil. Right now, it the first time I feel like I have no escape. Drama with family, drama at work, drama with friends, and now I am living in fear in my own home? I know I have always proven myself to be stronger than I think, and very resilient over the years, but I am going to be honest here. I really don't know how much more I can take.

I will own up to my mistakes. I have made plenty, and I do my best to own up when I need to. I hate asking for help God, but I am in a corner.

Please help me. Help me muster some more strength to power through this horrible year so far. Help me to be the person you want me to be. And help me put myself back together, please.

Help me to help my dearest friend through these difficult times, I'd ask you to take care of her mom, but I know you will. Help my friend through these difficult times. Ease her grieving heart, and please allow her family to find comfort and solace. I put my problems on the back burner for her, she needs us more.

Thanks for the ear,

Angela